At a Loss...

Well, not that anyone reads this, except maybe Chelsea, but anyway, I'm kind of at a loss lately. It feels like a lot of things are all coming at me at once, and I don't really know what to do. I've been fighting and trying to keep things alive that matter to me, and I've been trying to prepare for some major changes that will be happening in my life in the near future. However, I feel like my endeavors aren't doing much, but rather they're kind of failing. I think the best way I can describe it would be to say that I feel like I'm in a cage of some sort and watching things happen. Despite my best efforts things appear to be falling apart. Now, it's not destroying me to see this... at least not externally, but it's hurting on the inside and I really don't know what to do. I'm not one to actually give up on things, at least not when I care. When I care, I'm committed and I do whatever it takes to make things work. I've learned though, that I can't always fix things. I'm not the Savior, I don't have the power to make everything better. Sure, I want to do whatever I can to make it happen, but I'm limited by something I call mortality. I'm just as limited as the next man. I don't know, I guess I'm just at a loss, and it's hard for me. I'm really trying to figure out what I need to do about things, but I haven't really gotten anywhere yet. I emphasize yet, because I will figure something out eventually, one way or another. For now, I'm stuck in my glass cage watching things happen and doing the little bit that I'm capable of. Other than my worries about losing things that matter to me, I'm doing pretty good, because I know that in the end I'll be alright. The problem is, I like to put others first and I want to make sure those I care about are going to be alright...